know joy

Know joy in your life, hold it dearly , feel it fully, embrace it …

Kiffin

 

funny about life

 Funny the ups and downs the turn arounds , let downs, the joy rides, the tears of pain or pure joy of life. Nothing changing but everything changing . The weather how it takes a day and shapes it . Worry , trying not too , getting around to reading material I was given to read . " Flip the Switch " . Tired  having too much pain as of late and keeping busy trying to forget .I have all this self help work piled up in a cornor doing nothing . I have a life to live . Some of my work will be on display at a goverment function and frankly it scares the shit out of me , as I have to attend . I’m not that good of an artist or poet but it is stuff of small communities I guess . The best way to discribe my stuff is different, alive with colour and movement. I look at some pieces and marvel at the fact I actually created them . I don’t copy scenery or pictures everything comes from within . Right now I feel  the need to paint so off I will go …First I wish I could play music here as it adds so much to a site but for some unknown reason it doesn’t happen , no matter who tries to get it to work it just doesn;t .I have tool downloaded but it refuses to work and besides I haven’t all the music I like downloaded here on the computer. I was listening to an old song called"wildfire " ( I think that’s the name ) wow what powerful memories !

I am …

I am better at leaving comments then writing and statments here about life . For I find words to speak when given a subject , or a matter of the heart . My heart , it’s open ,yes vulnerable, I love fully when I finally let someone in . It’s strange how it took over thirty years to finally let God take my anger my sadness, my loneliness . I prayed , it happened, it makes me more afraid of this world but I will live it to my fullest with all the good and the bad. I will laugh and be silly and lie down to rest when I become to weary to stand . I will share with those who let me I will love those who will let me . This beautiful gift I will hold and let the rays of it’s beauty reach outward to touch who and what it will .

a wedding

 well their wedding was beautiful ! the fun we had ! I’m finding it harder and harder to write on the net it seems there are so many scary things out there , one has to ask is anything safe anymore ?

The Rain

                           The Rain

 

                  Close your eyes,

                   take a deep breath

                   smell the earth

                   the rain upon the air

                   feel it’s dampness

                   gather upon your skin

                   listen to it’s sound

                   so soft at first

                   gaining strength

                   to drum loudly in your

                   ears.

                   stick out your tongue 

                   catching a drop,one

                   then two …

                   slowly open your

                   eyes , seeing it’s 

                   light reflecting,

                   drops bouncing in puddles

                    Now hold out your arms

                   tipping your face upwards

                   and spin with the

                   delight of a child

                   laughter bubbling up

                   lashes weighted down

                   with it’s heaviness,

                   closing your eyes once again .

                    Stand still if you can

                   breath deeply

                   remember a cold winter rain

                   walking in to the house

                   walking into love

                   a love given freely

                   willingly,

                    For that rain had started

                   with a heavy heart

                   and tears that had stung

                   and a body cold, shivering

                   closing in upon it’s self

                   walking on to a bus

                   fate.

                    Close your eyes

                   remember ….

 

Kiffin            

           

   

                

           

a story about racoons

While camping my daugther left out two cans of coke with the left overs in them ( the small amt that she never drinks from the bottom ), one in her cup holder in the chair and the other on the table . Well it turns out racoons will eat or drink just about anything … as I laid there I heard a funny sound after what sounded like a herd of them running by the tent, scratching at something ( the cup holder ) then a kurplunk and kluck, kluck . Then had drank the coke ! Now we are very careful never to leave anything out nor take anything food wise/drink into the tent but those two cans did get left out . I guess they thought there might be more because they actually looked through the mesh window and door ( yes both opened to the beautiful night air ) . I guess they realized nothing in there and they took off once again sounding like a herd of elephants to other sites beside us . They returned the next night but alas there was nothing for them . Deer also wondered about freely in the wooded areas between sites nibbling on the foder they found . Not one aniamal there was afraid from porcepines(sp) to turtles they all starred at us and went about their business of eating and sunning .What a wonderful week with the kids it was !  Now this week, it’s rain , rain go away come again another day ( next week please ) but day trips were done so it turned out there was cloud only ( but so cold brrrr ) in some areas here after all . Then there is my big yellow rain coat tha looks oh so fine, LOL … it did get lots of use !

 Later … take care out there …

camping trip

 The camping trip went well with our oldest daugther’s family. The racoons ran rampant during two nights and looked into our tent ! What a noise they made, sounded like they were having quite the party !  Saw and did mny things and played around with the camera some, trying different lighting and settings . No shower for four days but the weather was just right and dry ( thus no sweating up a storm ) and when finaly a shower was had , my did it feel good !. Ten showers for a large camp ground just are not enough but hey there was runnning water and hot water in the bathrooms   . Read some, romance novels at that ! Lots of hikes and some swimming, ice cream faces, smores, and even a nap in the van with my younger one (who was too young to go on the bikes ) . I must admitt I heard a few snickers as I am sure my mouth was wide open while I dozed , LOL . A week that we saw all three kids and families and they all cooked a meal for us too ! Delicious! I’ll post a few pics … The zoo was fun !!!

later… take care